I'm sad today. My mom is having a bad reaction to her chemo (rash on her entire body and thrush in her mouth) and there is nothing I can do to help. I feel the miles between us.
My sister, M, is having her hysterectomy and oophorectomy tomorrow. She is coming to terms with the seriousness of the brca2 diagnosis. It's not easy because we really don't have any choice-the surgeries must be done. The statistics are too high. One doctor said "it's not if you're going to get cancer but when." My emotions are all over the place. I'm happy because I can be proactive. I'm scared because I've never been in the hospital except giving birth, I'm annoyed because this is disrupting my life, I'm overwhelmed by the support people have shown, and I'm thankful for my amazing husband.
I wanted to write a little bit about my sister. For as long as I can remember I've wanted to be with her. When I was young, I'd sit outside her bedroom waiting for her to make time for me. I wanted to borrow her clothes and style my hair just like hers. She was confident. She was a brilliant. She was strong. She was beautiful. She was my big sister.
Years and a few wrinkles later, she is still all those things. But, now
she is also
my best friend.
Please pray for M tomorrow. Her surgery is scheduled for 11:15.
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Jodi, I have known Jim since 3rd grade but have never met you. I just read your blog for the first time and am blown away by your candor. I had my first mammogram on Saturday, and got the call today that they need to do more views and an ultrasound. I don't have the family history that you do,and I'm hoping that it's nothing...I know statistically it's probably nothing but I'm a little freaked out just the same. Hoping that if I do need to face something serious, I can do it with the moxie you have!
ReplyDeleteThanks Kelly- if that was your first mammogram sometimes they want more information to compare. It's okay to be freaked out! Any time a doctor wants to do "more" it's scary. You can never be too careful ya know? Please let me know how it goes- I will be thinking of you.
Deleteof all the ways i have been blessed, your sisterhood and friendship are at the top. thank you for taking care of me and for all the love.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is full.
DeleteYou are both wonderful women...and this is a tough journey...you've researched and prayed, and you've chosen well with the advice of specialists. I am so sorry you have to go through this...and I wish I could make it all better. But I can't. I'm just thankful that you can protect yourselves for the future...no cancer. Praying for Shel as she prepares for tomorrow...then your upcoming surgery. Dad and I so wish we could be there for both of you. We are praying and trusting God with you and Michele. Love and hugs. The Lord will fight for you...you need only be still~ He is with you! Mom and Dad
ReplyDeleteI love you mom. I know you want to be here- and you are in spirit. Take care of yourself, get well. We are gonna have one heck of a party when all of us are "free" of this cancer crap!!!
DeleteI check your blog daily in an effort to walk through this journey that you and your family have begun. Know that you girls are in my thoughts regularly and I trust that God has a plan and direction for all of this craziness.
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thanks! great to have support and hopefully we can help other women.
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